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| | Security: | | | Subject: | hmm | | Time: | 09:58 pm |
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| | i can post from my new droid how cool!! | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 268.2 | | Time: | 08:08 am |
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| I will be tracking EVERYTHING I eat today. I'm going to the gym, too! More to come after my day begins! :)
1 year- 365 days left. Goal weight to lose: 100 lbs. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 3am | | Time: | 03:22 am |
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| It's 3:30 AM. I can't sleep. I'm tired, but I have so much going through my head. I'm so disapointed in myself- I'm back up to 265. I can't believe it. Well, I can actually. I gained 65 lbs. I was SO close to be 199. SO close. I feel like a failure for myself and my daughter. I felt so good at 200. Confident, healthy, BP was normal, face was clear- I felt great. Why can't I understand the term "one day at a time" and just lose the weight. :(
My daughter is afraid of me dying. I'm afraid of it too. I don't want to let her down. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| I have reached my breaking point. I no longer feel sexy or pretty. I no longer feel healthy or in-shape. I feel like I've disapointed my daughter because i'm not living up to my full potential as a person, or a parent.
I will reach my goal and not stop when Im "comforatable" after losing 20-30- or even 40 lbs.
I will be less than 200 lbs and again NOT stop there because Im' comforatable
I will go out of my comfort zone of beng overweight and be thin and healthy
I will be below a size 10
I will never feel winded when I play with my daughter
I will never feel like I cant do something because of my weight
I will never NOT do something with my daughter because of my weight
I will never be embarrassed again to buy clothes
I will be proud at the drs office when I step on the scale
I will feel beautiful without loading myself with makeup and my long hair
.... there will be more... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 244.4 | | Time: | 08:05 am |
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| | still hovering. my own fault. milkshake sat. too much to eat yesterday. gym and back on track today. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | went to boyfriends last night. ate a decent amount yesterday- had a milkshake:( Oh well. That was my day. Do better today. Weigh in tomorrow. Gym today for sure. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | First weigh-in then second 3 seconds later... hmmm. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 245.2 | | Time: | 08:03 am |
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| | Ugggggh I just wanna get below 245 its discouraging. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 245.2 | | Time: | 09:29 am |
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| I found or my lab results from thursday- my thyroid is fine, and my bad cholesterol is 165. :( I have high bp and high cholesterol. I'm so scared....
245.2 ugh. I want to be 239. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 246 | | Time: | 08:37 am |
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| | I've been doing really well with my eating and working out. I'm pretty proud of myself. I went to the gym yesterday and for the past few days and I've lost a decent amount of weight so far. It'll really kick in when I hit 239. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 248.6 | | Time: | 07:00 am |
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| I'm finally below 250. I did really well eating at dads last night! Instead of cake , I had yogurt, and instead of the huge two burriots I'd usually have, I had only one shell, a few beans (no meat), lots of lettuce, a few olives , very litle cheese, and a taste of sour cream and refried beans. I was so proud of myself. When I came home, I didnt binge. Instead, I went to bed, and called it a day.
Unfortunately, I didn't make it to the gym. I can think of 100 reasons why I didnt' go, but in reality, I COULD HAVE if I had really, really wanted to. I'm dissapointed in myself for not going, but I AM going today after work, | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 254.0 | | Time: | 08:15 am |
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| 254.0 Way to go. Not. I am getting so fat again. I looked at myself in the mirror yesterday at the amusement park, and I almost cried. Not to mention, when I went to get on a ride, I almost didn't fit. I was so humiliated.
I WILL , WILL, WILL, WILL go to the gym today.
No matter what.
I WILL WILL WILL eat in proper proportions today.
No matter what.
No excuses. No "just one bite". No "I'm too tired." Nothing. Just me, doing my best.
I will .
BFAST:
300 cal breakfast from Dunkin Donuts.
TOTAL:300
LUNCH:
Slim fast (180)
Yogurt (100)
TOTAL: 280 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| How did this happen? I was down to 200 lbs! How did I gain the majority of my weight back? My 4 year old daughter looked at an old picture of me today and goes "Mommy you were skinny, You're not now but I sitll love you." It broke my heart. I dont want her to think that being overweight is OK. Luckily, she's not.. and I hope it stays that way. It worries me constantly, because I'm setting a bad example. I want to set a good example.
gym today.
Bfast:
1/2 c oatmeal (150)
2 tsp honey (60)
1/4 c sf syrup (30)
TOTAL:240 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 249.5 | | Time: | 09:31 am |
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| | What can i expect after all I ate last night? I totally binged. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Yesterday I did pretty poorly eating. I always tend to fall of the wagon at night when I'm home. I need to replace my boredom and eating with something productive (like cleaning, organizin, working out at home) That's my goal today- replace my boredom and food with productivity.
I will post my food at the end of the day.
I WILL go to the gym today.
1 Muffin (100)
2 egg whites (35)
1/2 s cheese (30)
1 yougurt (80)
TOTAL: 245
SNACK:
Special K Crackers (90)
LUNCH:
Smart Ones (280)
SNACK:
1 truffle ice cream (100)
MISC:
Goldfish (150)
MISC (50)
TOTAL: 915
DINNER:
Healthy Choice
I did go to the gym tonight--
I binged tonight :( :( I have an apointment tomorrow with my psychologist- I really need to start taking about this. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I'm starting my own 12 week challenge.My award for completing it is to take myself on a vacation somewhere.
Starting Weight: 249.12
Goal weight: 215
Lbs to Lose: 34
BFAST:
1 misc Abby's cerea (50)
1/2 c oatmeal (150)
3/4 banana (100)
TOTAL: 300
SNACK:#1
1 kashi bar (130)
Snack #2
90 cal spec k crackers w 1 lc cheese (125)
TOTAL:455
LUNCH:
1 bun (100)
1 portabella mushroom (35)
1 tsp FF Cream cheese (30)
1tsp onion (0)
1 brussel sprout (35)
1 SF Jello (10)
TOTAL: 665 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 250? | | Time: | 01:31 pm |
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| BFAST:
1 sandwhich roll (100)
2 egg whites (35)
1/2 slice cheese (30)
1/4 c cottage cheese (80)
TOTAL: 245
LUNCH:
WW Bread (100)
Miracle whip (20)
Turkey (60)
pop corn (50)
TOTAL: 230 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 250 | | Time: | 07:51 am |
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| BFAST:
1 low sugar oatmeal (130)
1 yogurt (80)
1/4 banana (45)
TOTAL: 255 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| As I'm sitting in my chair, my tummy is rumbling. I look at my surroundings and notice that it's: messy, disorganized, and many more food wrappers laying around than I'd care to acknowledge.
I weighed myself this morning- 250 lbs. I've gained FIFTY lbs in a little over a year- it's disgusting.
I can feel it. I can fee it when I walk. I can feel it in my face and neck. I'm so embarrassed of my body. Don't look at me. Don't notice me. I'm fat. HOw can my boyfriend love me- I dont even love me- I don't know how to love me.
I've been inside this rotting body for so long DESPERATELY Trying to get out- where the hell is my ladder? Why does it always fall when I start to climb? Why can't I keep it on the ground and allow myself to get out of this body? This feeling.
I've been overweight my ENTIRE life. It's all I know. I only know how to be "chubby". I don't know how to be "Thin". It's not something I can learn in a book, but only by experience.
I'm so scared; I'm so tired of being scared. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| yeah, so I'm starting to feel the effects of gaining weight. It's not fun. My collar bone is dissapearing, i'm getting winded far more easily- tons of fun.
BFAST:
1 muffin (100)
2 egg whites (35)
1/2 sl cheese (30)
1 yogurt: (80)
TOTAL: 245 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| BFAST:
4 - 5 pancakes
peanut butter
SF Syrup (30)
prunes (60) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 243.8 | | Time: | 07:55 am |
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| BFAST:
1 100 cal muff (100)
2 egg whites (35)
1/2 slice cheese (15)
1 light in fit (80)
TOTAL: 230 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 241.4 | | Time: | 07:47 am |
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| 241.4 today. Gained some. Figures.
BFAST:
1 slim fast (180)
SNACK:
1 apple (80)
crackers (90)
LUNCH:
1 soup (130)
fruit (70)
M&Ms (150)
DINNER:
1 healthy choice (270)
crackers (90)
TOTAL: 1060 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 238.6 | | Time: | 10:09 am |
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| BFAST:
1 strawberry oatmeal (130)
1 lite n fit yogurt (80)
1 fiber drink (20)
TOTAL: 230 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| BFAST:
DD FLatbread eggwhite (300)
coffee (50)
Munchkins (200?) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | 237.8 | | Time: | 08:02 am |
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| BFAST:
1 DD Sandwich (300)
1 coffee (0)
TOTAL: 300 | | comments: Leave a comment |
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